Well yesterday we finished our home study. Basically what this means is a lady from our adoption agency comes to see our house and talk to us. I spent ALL day cleaning everything from the baseboards to the inside of our fridge - needless to say she wasn't too worried about all that. I mean it was nice that our house was clean - but she spent her time interviewing us both about ourselves, our families, our marriage, our interests. There were some tough questions for sure but through all of this I am learning so much about myself and so much about the amazing man I married. I think its common in a lot of adoptions for the man to have a tougher time coming to grips with certain decisions. Justin has really amazed me with how much he has opened his heart to our decision we are making together. He is a much more private person than I - so when she interviewed us both together I did a lot of the talking - but when she interviewed him alone he answered some tough questions about being a dad one day and a husband so well - I could hear him through the wall in our bedroom (and those of you that know me well know I was NOT trying to listen ha!)! I am very proud to be his wife! He is an honest man - with Justin what you see IS what you get - at times I don't like this haha - but I am realizing this is an amzing quality and I truly do appreciate him and his heart so much! He is going to be an amazing dad and I can not wait till the day I hear a little boy or girl call him daddy! He was raised in a wonderful family by a mom and dad who loved each other and were always there for him - and I really admire how much he respects them!! They say going through an adoption can be a tough time on a marriage but I am really starting to see this may be one of the greatest times of our marriage - I am seeing a whole different side of him at times - last night he said to our friends and I "Nobody and I mean nobody will ever love this baby the way I am going to - nobody" and this is so true - he's an amazing man with an amazing heart and a lot of love to give and our baby is going to be SO lucky to have him as a father. I see the way he is with high school kids that he genuinely loves and he would take in ANY day if they needed him, I see the way he is with our nieces and nephew and our friends kids we are close to, I see the way he is with our dog (ohhhh he is so crazy about this dog!) and I know I married a man that was meant to be a daddy!
I really don't think there is anything that will bring me more joy than seeing him with our child. Okay, I'm gushing too much - let me go walk around the house and pick up his shoes that are sitting in the living room I am sure so I can find something to gripe at him about haha - just kidding! Thank you so much friends and family for your support - I don't write on here all the time but when special things come up I will be posting and I certainly will be if we get any news that we have been chosen by a birthparent - till then please keep us in your prayers and I know God already has a special child chosen to be ours - till then I will just pray for patience for us and keep my FAITH in HIM!
On an exciting note our Panthers won Friday night - just another reason to be thankful! Its gonna be a great season I believe for SO many reasons!!! So I'll leave you with this adorable picture I just love ..... these are the absolute cutest Panther fans (all the coaches kids and one little coaches niece (our Abby) took a picture for a real estate agents ad in the panther program) ..... I just love this picture -GO PANTHERS!
