Our baby will be born in Wichita Falls, Texas and we won't have any family there with us.... that is kind of an adoption rule and is understood. It will be just Justin and I at the hospital and it will be time for us to just lean on each other. It will be hard not having family there but we can't wait to be headed down the highway with that sweet baby in our backseat ready to meet their family and friends. That will be a JOYOUS car ride home - I can just picture Justin and I now thinking, "Is this real??! This sweet baby is coming home with us forever!" It will be along 3 hours for Justin lol - I will be a mess, but a GOOD mess haha! :) This has been a scary, enlightening, joyful process .... I don't think we were prepared at all for the emotions we would feel both good and bad in the last year. Several things didn't work out this year with other possible birthparents, but we have FAITH that was because God was leading us to our baby. Thank you all for your prayers.... I am updating my blog because I had wanted to share in this experience with others in case others were considering adoption as well. I feel its best to be honest about things always and I am not good at keeping secrets at all so there was no way I was going to hold this in till Christmas. In adoption things do happen, nothing is a guarantee.... there is a chance in all of this we could be heartbroken, but our Faith in God, our love from our family and friends and our devotion to our marriage will get us through whatever the future has in store for us. I want to leave you all with a beautiful poem a friend sent me.... I hope you all will remember and have respect for our birthmom at this time and the emotions she will be feeling. She and our birth father will always be a special people in our life and in our childs life for the amazing decision they are making!!
Oh and for those wondering.... We don't quite know the sex yet.... We will be finding that out for sure next week probably. Boy or Girl - either way they will be the greatest GIFT ever for us!
beware this made me cry! get the kleenex ready!! :)
I tiptoed into your room one night.
I watched you sleeping there.
Your tiny body looked so snug
Wrapped in peaceful slumber's care.
I watched you sleeping there.
Your tiny body looked so snug
Wrapped in peaceful slumber's care.
I thought of how you came to be
The child we'd longed to know.
I wondered at the sight of you:
"How could she let you go?"
The child we'd longed to know.
I wondered at the sight of you:
"How could she let you go?"
Tears streamed down my cheeks as I
Felt the pain she must have known.
For I will have to let you go
Some day when you are grown.
Felt the pain she must have known.
For I will have to let you go
Some day when you are grown.
A mother I might never meet
Had given me her son.
Yet, surely as you've filled my heart,
A piece of hers you'd won.
Had given me her son.
Yet, surely as you've filled my heart,
A piece of hers you'd won.
"How could she let you go?"
The question kept returning.
And in the depths of my own heart.
A question kept on burning.
"How can I ever let you go
When years have come and gone?"
I stood there by your crib until
The nighttime turned to dawn.
And as the sun peeked through the shades,
The voice of God broke through.
"I trusted her to give him life
And now I'm trusting you.
The voice of God broke through.
"I trusted her to give him life
And now I'm trusting you.
"To show him what is right and wrong,
to love him and to be
The one who teaches him the way
To come back home to me.
to love him and to be
The one who teaches him the way
To come back home to me.
"He wasn't hers to give, you know.
And he's not yours to own.
I've placed him in your life to love
But he is mine … on loan."
~Valerie Kay Gwin~
And he's not yours to own.
I've placed him in your life to love
But he is mine … on loan."
~Valerie Kay Gwin~